There is something about taking a moment to be alone with your thoughts. There is something sacred about being in-tuned with your own inner workings. Maybe it’s the introvert in me trying to speak out, but I have not felt like myself over the past year or so, and I couldn’t figure out what it was. I realized that I had not even been able to write my thoughts down, because it was a chaotic mess swirling in my head. However, recently I have been able to take the time to allow myself to think and reflect on things going on in my life, or that have gone on in my life, and that has allowed me to once again put words to paper.
Cognition is the acquisition of knowledge and understanding through thought, experience, and the senses. So I have begun to ask myself questions I have long ignored. I have begun to reflect on past decisions and the paths those have led me down. I have taken a look at the way I act now, and tried to figure out if it is giving me the outcome I desire. I have been able to accept lovingly-delivered criticism about my actions and choices as a parent, and have tried to figure out where that pattern in me originated. With the way my own mind works, if I can figure out the “why”, then I can create lasting change that I hope to benefit myself, my wife, and my children.
As briefly as two months ago I could not have a thought this coherent. This does not mean I am changed, but that I am at the beginning of a journey I am willing to share with you. Through these cognitions, both positive and negative, I hope to explore these questions of “why”, and get to the foundation of who I am. I have spent several decades mentally running away from things I was not in a place to handle, but I am ready now.
Imagine what we can learn about ourselves when we take the time to reflect on the questions we avoid asking. What could we take from our own past that could help improve our future? How can we insert current knowledge into a previous experience so we can learn from it, instead of repeating destructive patterns?
These are the things I hope to explore, and share here in this new Dads Rountable category: Cognitions. Through these moments of cognitive awareness, I hope to continue to build a better understanding of myself, so I can continue to be the best version for those whom I love.
My wife deserves that. My kids deserve that. I deserve that. Don’t you?